i'm so weird...maybe i really am crazy.

so i go to the career fair. for some reason i'm in this apathetic mood and everything seemed so funnie to me. the whole career fair was like a circus, it's like we're dancing monkeys for them. it made me laugh. i was basically walking around by myself with this stupid smirk on my face, i probably looked like i was on drugs. i realized that when you're in this "i don't care" attitude, it's easier to talk to those employers, because i didn't care about about being like everyone else with their suits and leather bound portfolios with resume in hand. i strolled around in my jeans, holding a pink notebook, papers everywhere, backpack and dirty shoes. meh, maybe i was on drugs? i don't know why i found it so funnie.

so i'm walking on campus and i decided to stop and put all these papers in my backpack. the wind happens to start blowing as soon as set my papers down and they go flying around the benches in front of dwinelle. i almost laughed. usually i would've been totally embarassed or mortified. i just found it really funnie. so i'm just walking around picking up papers everywhere. people were so nice, they picked some up for me.

so then i walk to the library and go to the computing center. i went on a mac because i didn't want to wait. i ended up sitting next to this guy who smelled like urine. at first i thought it was me, so i started sniffing myself nonchalantly. i would do a hair flip and try to smell my hair. but no, i just smelled like sweetness.

so i'm walking to my discussion and this bug flies into my eye. it was kinda funnie, during discussion, my eye started getting all itchy.

i don't know what to expect anymore. i don't know whether to think life is a drama or a tragic comedy. maybe today it was a comedy. maybe my brain is developing some sort of coping mechanism for being depressed. we'll see how it goes tomorrow (rather today since i'ts like 3:30 am).