i remember when i was growing up, my mom said that i was a "refridgerator" in korean. meaning, i was cold blooded. i am. maybe that's why i can't open up and just hug people and be approachable and caring for others. i am cold-blooded...and it hurts. i guess some people would say, "whaat, nooo way, you're totally caring and etc...". ha...that's what i want them to see...but if you really observe me and watch me, i am cold blooded, distant, jerk-y, insecure, unkind, selfish. i really don't like myself sometimes...sometimes i wish i was just far far away. ironic...for someone who is cold-blooded, i'm way too sensitive...and i get hurt way too easily. i guess there is some warm blood in me.