i've been gone awhile, sorry to all 2 of you who read this thing. i think i have a love-hate relationship with berkeley. mostly hate. hehe. i decided to compile a list of why i hate berkeley...yes, i'm a total hater.

why berkeley sucks (in no particular order...)
10. the person who designed the city must've been on crack. the streets, buildings, houses....gosh....sorry, but i really hate looking at it sometimes.
9. what's even worse than the crappy streets, are the crappy drivers. where did these people learn to drive?? seriously, berkeley drivers are the worst. is it road rage? you don't need to pump up the speakers in your ddong cha and act like you're cool, cuz you're not.
8. this goes along with #10, but the city planners and apartment builders who designed this city didn't think about parking. it'a a conspiracy you know. yes, let's just make a 50 unit building with no parking so people will park illegally. then we'll have a little wannabe policeperson drive around in a white and black go cart and give tickets to all those cars, thus bringing in revenue for the city!
7. these "apartments" are more like holes in the wall with a bowl for you to go pee. what the heck are wrong with these apartments? then you have to basically sell your soul to afford one of these crap houses. landlords and managers that never get back to you or fix what you want.
6. Ohhh...the university...that's a whole separate category. but the university only cares about its own prestige, rather than its students. professors that only care about their own research and prestige rather than being educators. i better not get any of those annoying phone calls when i'm an alumni asking for money. arg, you already sucked the cash out of my wallet for 4 years, go suck somewhere else.
5. after 3 years, i'm SICK of the smell of incense, BO, pot, alcohol, pee, and poo. can't i just walk one day without having to smell this stuff??
4. why don't people hang out with other people?? why do all the athletes stick together? why do all the asians stick together? why do all the african americans stick together? same with whites, indians, etc. i know that we identify with our own groups better and all...but do you really want to go through life never adventuring outside the bubble? i notice this ALOT about berkeley. we say that we're diverse, but it's all a bunch of bs. i'm seriously gonna make some changes senior year. I HAVE TO.
3. ok, i'm sick and tired of having punk kids ask me for money for pot or alcohol. first of all, these kids are from walnut creek, one of more affluent suburbs in the bay area. they have money to buy spike collar jewlery, dye their hair, buy skateboards, buy their Hot Topic clothes which are not cheap by the way, get makeup, play their guitar, smoke cigarettes, etc. i wish i could just say "have your parents pick you up in the family lexus or SUV and go back to freakin walnut creek and stop trying to be homeless." well...i'd prob add a few more words in there...but i had to clean it up a little. suburban kids trying to be homeless.
2. where is the nearest jack in the box?? where's my in n out?? mcdonalds so far away! where's my fast food?!? where's my office depot or staples?? target?? a taco bell that doesn't suck?? of course, berkeley has to have the gap. gap is on every corner of SF. gap gap gap. i'm so tired of the gap. go away gap, welcome in n out.
1. i probably did this to myself or somehow a culmination of the whole berkeley experience did this to me, but i'm a bitter person. more cynical and bitter than i ever was. i miss feeling hyper, i miss feeling generally happy everyday. i miss being able to be me. i feel as if i have to TRY really hard to be me. what is me? i don't know anymore...i just wish i was the way i used to be. i just wish i could stop caring, and not build anymore relationships since i'm leaving in a year. i know that's selfish, but i'm tired of trying to build relationships that are skin deep. i should just focus on the deep relationships i have right, rather than try and start new ones???

so if you managed to get to the end of this tirade, then you're either
a. really bored
b. actually find this amusing...
c. read my blog on a regular basis to see what's up in my life
d. what the heck is this?? i was trying to find the gap website but i ended up here!?!