did you ever share something with someone that you thought was really personal and it was a part of you being vulnerable. then the person who listens just does not care because they don't understand what you just told them, or they're just feigning interest? sigh...i realized that i might have shared a part of myself and made myself vulnerable and that most of the people who listened to me didn't seem to really care. or they thought i was complaining or bitching. sigh...it's sometimes so frustrating to talk to people, so i just stop trying. i guess i now know not to talk to certain people about private things. you know, just stick to the happy-go-lucky chit chat BS. sigh...sharing sucks sometimes. it's not that i have a grudge against this person, but i see that she wouldn't understand where i am coming from, because she's on the other side of the looking glass.

you know, sometimes i wish i could be one of those flakers. i hate flakers, but seriously, sometimes i wonder why i always have to be the dependable one? people always flake, so why can't i do it once in a while. but then i know how it feels when people flake on you, and it's a sucky feeling. i guess that's why i don't flake, even though it's just so tempting. so all you flakers out there, stop it! maybe i can just be a snowflake. haha, i dunno, i'm weird.

so some good news, i got a digi cam today. my brother got it for me as a birthday/christmas/graduation gift. he lumps all my presents into a super present. :P i don't know what to take pictures of, and all the pictures i take turn out weird. haha, so much for my "fantasy job" of photography. i always figured how hard could it be to take pictures, but it's pretty dang hard.