i wanna run away, and never say good-bye, i wanna close the door, and ...(forgot rest of lyrics)

i really don't like finals. why does it feel so intense here?? people are soooo worked up and literally compete in getting a seat at the library. so crazy. and just to top things off, my econ advisor (who doesn't do jack in advising and is really mean) sends us this article in the new york times saying how hard it is for new graduates to get a job and how no recent grauduates have jobs and that they're all going to grad school. it makes me feel even more sad because i've been shot down tons of times this semester for internships.

sigh...then finals! i seriously just want to bury my head in a pillow and hide under a blanket and not come out until it's over.

i'm scared all of a sudden. i really don't know what i'm gonna do about next year. i have lotsa doubts in my head whether to continue what i'm doing now, or just run away. i dunno...i feel like running away, but that's what i do whenever i'm scared or have problems. i just don't wanna deal with it. bleh...it's like that sum 41 song: "part of me, won't agree, cuz i don't know if it's for sure..."

i guess i should focus on getting through the next two weeks...then worry about this other stuff later. :P